The hardest way to miss someone is to be in the same room with that person and not be able to look into their eyes and share a glance, hoping that the other person is still  feeling the same way. The easy part is remeniscing, remembering all of the intimate secrets that you have once shared, the laughs, the talks, hugs, kisses, and everything else that comes with being in a relationship.
It seems that all that you have to yourself are your thoughts and memories. Good, bad, and ugly! No one can take that away from you. A lot of the time, we can not change who we have feelings for and  who we fall in love with.
Has there ever been a person in your life that has impacted your life in so many ways and they don't know it? Or has there ever been a person in your life that every time you see that individual, no matter if you see that person daily, or you barely see that person, and once you see that person again, all of your old repressed feeling resurface as if it was the first time you fell for that person all over again. Yes of course it is extremely hard for some people to be verbally expressive, or they choose to not to be precise on how they're feeling or felt about that certain someone because of trust issues, or fear of being hurt, rejection and the list can go on. 
We always tend to take our relationships (family, friends, significant others etc.) for granted until it is gone or too late to get back. We as people need to get off of our high pedestals, and not be afraid to tell them how you're feeling, that you love them, need them, or flat out and say I'm sorry. The moral to this blog and inspiration today is family. Swallow your pride, Love the people that you love and don't be afraid to flaunt it. You only have one life to live, so live your life to its full potential and enjoy it. Have a great day Blog world.

It's time for New Beginnings!

Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.

-Harriet Tubman

Last night I went to bed with the enemy (devil) on my back. This morning I woke up with him in my face. At times I can be in denial about my feelings or not very open about what's going on with me personally. Not necesarrily lying, I just have my own personal issues with expressing how I'm feeling. I can honestly say that I am overwhelmed with all that life has in store at this current moment.  Every day has become more challenging but still pretending deep down inside that I'm ok. I woke up this morning with negativity thrown in my face. It seems as if now I'm dealing with a real life enemy and not just the devil. I don't have very many friends that I deal with on a regular basis but the close family and the friends that I choose to keep around are close. I feel as though right now friends and family can be your biggest enemy when they want to be. I'm sad to know that no matter what cheek you turn they will still find a way to slap it. I thought I was distant enough from everyone but I guess I'm not distant enough.  My point of this blog is that just because a person is nice or not it doesn't give anyone the right to be disrepectful, or the right to mistreat someone. Its not fun having enemies or frienemies. I'm a firm believer in Family 1st, loyalty, and honesty and would rather be left alone than surrounded by a bunch of fakes! I needed to get that off of my chest today! I'm praying for a better tomorrow!